I Need You

“What do you think of the moon?” she asked.
“That’s a weird question,” I said.
“I know. But the answers are very interesting.”
“Alright then,” I began, “I think he’s a spineless bitch.”
She stared at me for a second. Then she laughed heartily. “Did you seriously just call the moon a bitch?” she asked, still laughing.
“I did. I mean, he’s so co-dependent. Without the sun he’d be nothing. He’s a loser who can’t do anything on his own. I very much relate to that.” I smiled.
She laughed again at my joke and shook her head in disbelief. “The moon is a bitch,” she murmured.
I could feel her hand grabbing mine. She rested her head on my shoulder and looked at the city lights in front of us. It was about 11 PM on a february night and it was freezing. The two of us weren’t wearing more than a t-shirt and a jacket and I had lost the feeling in my feet. Nevertheless, we didn’t care about the cold. It would’ve been a waste of time to worry about freezing. We were trying to enjoy the moment to its fullest and time was running out. With every passing minute it seemed to accelerate like it wanted to escape from our happiness. I tried not to think about the fact that she had to leave soon. Because once she did, everything would be shitty again. Reality would come running round the corner with its fists raised, ready to punch me in the face to remind me of my frustrating life. The thoughts about my job and responsibilities would come crawling back to overtake my mind and I would again be left to suffocate in the vacuum of real life. But for now, I was happy. I was relaxed and calm, without a single fuck to give about anything else than her.
“I need you,” I said, breaking the silence that had slowly surrounded us. She lifted her head from my shoulder and looked at me. “What do you mean?” she asked.
“You keep my feet on the ground. You are the reason I still have the strength to get out of bed every morning. Without you, I would be nothing. Like the moon.” I smiled at that unintentional analogy. “You’re my sun. Your light shines through me and gives me warmth. Your touch fills me with life. I need you, because without you I would get lost in the darkness.”
She didn’t say anything. She just kissed me. Softly, but with purpose.
“If this is your way of saying shut up then I’m never gonna stop talking,” I said with a childish grin.
“You’re ruining it.”
“I know,” I replied, “I’m quite good at that.”
With these words I pulled her closer. She kissed my cheek. Her lips were warm as the morning sun and I felt like my whole body was being filled with a powerful energy.
“I have to go now,” she said. Immediately I was aware of the freezing cold and the darkness. She kissed me again and then left.
There I was, in the same place I always am, all alone in the deep, merciless void of reality.

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